I confessed my sins. I always thought God always answer depending on the situation of the person\'s life. what i don\'t understand is... if people relate their lives to my situation how can i pray for my life?. i found my life spiritually complicated to pray for myself. i don\'t want to be alone like this. Sometimes i asked what is it that i have that people don\'t let me have a normal life like i used to. i\'m not even rich to sustain something of this big dimension. I don\'t want to keep on living from the spirits only. i need a companion and with that i\'m not saying my dog. i\'m gay and i cannot keep on going to the wrong people. i only have one life and i want to settle. i know God loves me. i don\'t doubt it. It\'s this type of existance in which i\'m involved. i\'m asking for that change. i accept the difficult of my life but i don\'t want to be alone. Pray for me. it\'s not easy from here. i struggle a lot only to hold on to life. i do feel close to God but i need that miracle not just to be saved every time my life is put to be killed which i\'m very thankful for it(i haven\'t done nothing to anyone to live such injustice). i know i can be happy even with the difficult. i ask for compassion, not pity but compassion.